old boys/young men

yes sir, wassup kid? holla at yo' boy, its young(put your name here), lil' (put your name here)

does hiphop display a failure to mature? the above are just some of the few colloquialisms that seem to be used to address male compadres in the hiphop culture. the common denominator there? they all refer to each other as someone young, and still coming of age.

it makes you think dont it?

Im 28 this year and find myself still thinking bout things i did when i was much younger as it were yesterday. i grauduated from university in 2001 and i couldnt believe that when i actually open my mouth..... grown people listen. im still surprised by this till this day. I dont see myself as a 28 year old man. which i am. i see my self as the same 16 year old kid with lil responsibilities in the world. the same kid who kicked up gravel on dusty backroads with my best friend, talking bout how i was gonna' bag that hot girl in my stream and how we were gonna grow up and be big. you know, something different. men to contend with.

back then i thought by the time i touched 24 i would be married to the ahliyah lookalike from school. i would have a house and maybe a kid on the way.... i would be running my own firm or either a lawyer or a dentist. memories in HD. anyway... thing is the older i get the more and more i realise how easy it is to hold on to your childhood subconsciously. at the back of your mind your subcoscious is busy telling you.. dude, why you wanna do that? you are'nt your uncle.. he ws 28 when he did that........ then its hits you.

shit!!!!

i am not 16 anymore..... i may not carry myself with the swagger of a 16 year old,.. but part of me is. im way more confident and much much wiser.. but the lil boy in me occasionally rears his head and says.. dude you still got a long way to go. and when i step out of the box and analyze the situation i realise how critical ive been of other men who refer to themsleves as boy this, young that and lil' whoever. men who behave in what the fairer sex may deem immature and childish, like spurlging on tha two seater, or a night out at the strip club...... or the need to stick to contact sports even though they have arthritis like a mother fucker

its easy to get stuck into that trap

trust me i now know

i have to keep the lil boy in check and be the man in control, so that one day when i have to to look back at my memories, that lil' boy will be sated and content.....